I am completely the same!... I have a couple stories on Google docs and grew up writing so much.... I even created my own book with a book cover too I was that desperate to become an author and then I got in touch with a publisher and it was so expensive and a hassle I just gave up in the end... its always nice to have a dream etc and maybe one day I will get there and get back to my old stories I used to write... I did try to write a romance not long ago but gave up in the end once I found substack and I just like journalling now and writing essays but hopefully will get back to writing again. I hope you get there xx